Life

My life has been split into 2's. 2 sides of the family 2 lifestyles. The 2 sides of the family is like this one is laid back and a lot of fun and the other side is super serious. I think my moms side isn't always serious but my mom is a lot of the time. I think she kinda takes things to personally. Teens will speak there minds either verbally or on the internet. It helps them vent. Parents always want to know what is going on with their kids well its not that complicated. All kids care about is social status. They want to be accepted by their peers and by the world. But I guess we all do. We all act different to different people. To one group we are wild and crazy and to the other we are calm and professional. Why can't we be both all the time. I guess thats a society issue. We always want to be super professional at school or work but why cant we have fun? And around our friends we want to be fun but completly irresponsible. I think I am thinking pretty adult thoughts for a 15 year old and that's kinda due to experiences and who I grew up with. I grew up in an adult world where at the age of 5 I am being talked to about college and my future. Well none of us know our future. Life is like the ocean some tides are high and some are low but it is all controlled by one thing. well for the tides that's the moon. But for life its decisions I guess. Or is their a higher power. I would hope so. That kinda scares me. The afterlife. Its like will I be somewhere else when I die or will I be rotting in the ground. And if there is an afterlife do we remember our previous life. I want to be remembered thats for sure I guess that's why I have a bunch of social media. Another thing about the future is how long does it take to be forgotten. Like how long will it take to forget about idols like Elvis or Micheal Jackson. They are both dead but are idolized right now by millions. When will that die down? Will it ever? I think it would be cool to be one of them if there is a heaven or hell. what is hell like. Is it cold? Is it hot? nobody really knows till your there and you can't blog about it or anything like that. Is there a point to life? Or aree we just aimlessly looking and hoping it turns out OK. Life is a pretty tricky thing to be dealing with. was that extra hour of sleep worth it or was it wasted? should I have done this or done that? I think life should be lived with no regrets. It happened so you should get over it. There is no turning back now. Just live with the decision and make it into the result you want. I think its interesting how life is measured in statistics. Who makes the most money, who's the most known etc. I guess that's a measure of self worth. Knowing you matter to the world is the best feeling. I don't know what it feels like because I am not famous but I hope to be one day one of those people who other people look up to. It must be a lot of pressure being them.Always being looked at to screw up. Being criticized constantly by strangers who know you so well. why do we do it? why criticize other people? what satisfaction does that give you? Why are kids all taught to avoid strangers. That message can be inturrperted to live in solitare. It's a tricky thing to deal with. Kids. To show them the right path to give them advice you don't fully understand. who knows if we are even right about what we are talking about. What if this all isnt's real. what if this is all someones dream or an expirement by some other creature. How do we know. I guess nothing is certain except for the fact that we all strive for happiness. what makes you happy? I don't think we can reach full hapiness. Why are we here? Thats the question that is asked a lot. Is it random that we meet the people we do or is it predetermined? I guess thats the point of religion. It keeps us sane. do you ever feel like while you sleep you are wasting time? I kinda do. I feel like there is a lot more I could be doing with my life instead of sleeping. i am not that popular except on intagram but I feel like I can tell how people really are. What determines if someone is popular. how many friends they have? Well most of them probably aren't really your friends. The think you will be succesful and will feed of of you. I guess friends are kind of like leaches sometimes. i hate super hyper people. I think they do it for attention. They are all wrapped at home and kept in line and when they are out they act all crazy. I don't think parents should restarain their kids. Just let them who they want to be. And who they are around you probably isn't who they really are. I kind of want to end this post so I will. Anyways life is very complicated but we just have to figure it out and hope we get where we want to be.